I have this problem where I assume any man who looks in my direction is about to fall madly in love with me. It’s not narcissism or anything like that (oh god no) it’s just that for most of my life, this is what happened. Long-term relationships (all 2 of them) just happened for me for most of my adult life and up until the year 2021, I did not understand the concept of casual dating because I did not have to.
You mean to tell me I may go on one, two, even THREE dates with a man and he may actually be dating other women too? I’m sorry, I don't really comprehend the idea of a man not being fully obsessed with me – and only me – almost immediately. The idea that he could send me a text message and tell me he did not feel a “romantic vibe” makes me want to throw myself off a building or worse – the idea that he could literally evaporate from my world and go on living his life and breathing air and NOT want to marry me is just fucking disgusting.
As I mentioned, I had two very long-term relationships that book-ended my twenties and thirties so I essentially spent two decades in love. I really did not think this was an area I was going to struggle in. (Please do not hate me, because as you will read on, this is absolutely no longer the case!!!).